This is my first extra post.

I have been sitting in the dark trying to sleep for about 20 min.
I've been thinking instead.
Well, more like listening to some thoughts.
I think they're mine but from the past or future or something.
It seems really crazy.
I went all over in my head.
I remember a bunch of random stuff freaking me out.
Then thinking why does it matter.
The thoughts are just electrical impulses.
The body is mostly water.
I wonder if we get electrocuted.
That's like cymbalta withdrawal.
Then basically my while existence as a cutter up until whenever the thought was coming from.
But, i guess i was helping others somehow.
I'm kinda freaking out a little again.
Like this must be something bad if I'm remembering the future again.
Also, I'd like to try and get ahold of my favorite counselor, carrie singer.
I think that if i wouldn't have met her, i really might've killed myself, whether what i thought was intentional or uncontrollable or whatever.
I still have the letter she gave me the last time i saw her, though it's a bit hard to read, now.
Must try to sleep again.