My last day of being 21.
Started reading hunger games.
Went to darla's.
There's a hurricane.
Actually sort of affecting here.
In ohio.
Crazy.
Not much else to say.
Tried to help a lady jump her car at the gas station.
It didn't exactly work.
Posted late.
Written late.
Because i lost my phone somehow.
Had to get a new one.
Had to re download apps.
No pic because none was taken.
Here's what i wrote as a reminder:
Blogger. Lost phone. Revelation. Wanting to change the world. Etc.
Went to gran's.
Lots of people there.
Not focused.
Anyway, the revelation.
I'm lower than shit because i allow my mother to give everything for my happiness.
I realize how wrong I've been.
At least more than i have.
And I'd like to make amends.
Somehow.
Took me way too long.
And yes it'll be hard.
But I'm ready to start.
Couldn't have planned this blog for a better time, i suppose.
I think I'll be starting another, but not a has to be everyday kind of thing.
We'll see.
Today was okay.
I don't really feel like writing again.
I did a little zazen.
At gran's.
In addition to ruth etc, tammy, phil, jessica, and zach are over.
And the girls.
Not sure what else.
Today was okay.
Read a bit.
Went to gran's.
Saw my mom.
Aunt ruth, shawn, and nicholas got here.
Went to darla's.
That's about it.
I feel like things are changing.
Saw a falling meteor last night on a walk.
At least fourth one since march.
Today kind of sucked.
My car majorly overheated.
Went to the blacks'.
Got car towed.
My mom picked me up.
Went to walmart.
Radio in car died.
And tire could've fallen off.
Went to darla's.
Not a whole lot else to say.
Today was okay.
Read some.
Saw my mom.
And the bunny.
Not much else to say.
It rained some.
But it wasn't too bad.
Posted late.
Today was okay.
Read some.
Gaming.
Not a whole lot.
Um, the picture.
I don't think I like it.
But I guess I've taken worse.
Today was okay.
Not in the mood for writing.
I'm tired.
Colored with cally.
We all made leaf people.
Painted some wood.
Went to desirae's.
With my mom.
Watching a spice girls movie.
That's about it.
It's earlier than I usually write this.
I don't like the picture.
Today was okay.
It's steven's birthday.
We went to darla's.
Staying there.
Not a whole lot to say, really.
I'm kind of tipsy, I guess.
Today was okay.
Slept quite a bit.
Sort of watched animal farm.
And beavis and butthead.
There was some crazy weather in streetsboro.
We got the most amazing thing I think I've ever drank.
Pumpkin spice milk.
Saw thumper.
And my mom.
Went to five below.
Gave steven his presents.
That's about it.
First post with new phone.
Today was okay.
Had to exchange my phone.
And britty's reeds.
Saw my mom.
And the bunny.
Went to gaming.
Not sure what else, really.
Played borderlands 2.
Today was okay.
Posted late in hopes that my new phone worked.
But it's not ready yet.
Saw my mom.
Staying at gran's.
Got lots of sleep last night.
Still kinda tired.
Not sure what else, really.
So, apparently it's no bra day.
Staying at my mom's.
With the girls.
We went to the corn maze and stuff.
It was okay.
Then it started raining after we got back.
Read a little.
That's about it.
Almost forgot about this.
saw my mom.
And the bunny.
And went to the blacks' for a few.
That's about all.
I don't want to write this.
I think i need to be able to take a shower every day.
I fell asleep for a while.
We went to Kent.
Spin more is gone.
I don't know what to say.
Today was okay.
Did some zazen.
Started a new book.
Took a nap.
With Steven.
Went to my mom's.
Saw the bunny.
Went shopping.
Got socks.
Not a whole lot else.
Tried to make my pants smaller.
Dunno if it worked or not yet.
Posted late.
Today was okay.
Went to darla's.
Met Steven's dad.
Read more tartuffe.
That's about all.
Took a nap.
Out of boredom...
Today was okay.
Went to the library.
Saw my mom.
Went shopping.
Went to gran's.
That's about it.
Today was okay.
Went to gran's.
Fell asleep for a couple hours.
Started tartuffe.
Went shopping with my mom.
Not a whole lot else.
Today was okay.
It was warm.
Saw my bunny.
Went to the blacks' for a while.
Did very short zazen.
Um, i think that's about it.
Today was okay.
Went to five below for a cushion.
Saw my mom for a bit.
Not much else to say.
Today was okay.
Hung out with jessica.
Went to my mom's.
No one was home.
Pretty uneventful day, overall.
I think that's it.
Today was okay.
Went to darla's.
And my mom's.
Thumper seems quite happy still.
Not a whole lot to say.
Today was okay.
Went to the library.
Thumper is now a free range bunny.
Saw my mom.
And the girls.
There about it.
Finished book.
Played a little borderlands2.
Went to my mom's.
...zazen...
I think that's it.
Not in the mood for writing.
Went to the blacks'.
Then gran's.
At gaming.
Read some.
It rained.
That's about it.
Today was okay.
It's getting cooler.
Planted some flowers.
Went to darla's.
Then we played borderlands 2.
Went to my mom's.
Think I'm gonna stay at gran's tonight.
That's about it.
Posted late.
Today was okay.
Read some.
Went to my mom's.
Saw the girls.
It rained.
Went shopping.
Not sure what else to say.
Back to being gypsies.
Today started out bad but got much better i think.
Not much happened that i feel like talking about.
Fuck it.
I think my camera is broken.
No more pics, i guess.
Today was pretty awful.
Read some.
I don't know what else i should say.
I don't feel like writing.
Spent most of the day at the blacks'.
at gaming.
Played borderlands 2.
Read a chapter.
That's about it.
I'm just looking for the way.
To express myself.
Collecting bits from here or there.
Changing my mind when needed.
Getting up late was stressful.
When i get stressed, i tend to be short even if i at first intend to apologize.
I don't always apologize even when i know i should.
Even if i think i Want to.
I suppose I'm attached to the Idea of smoking cigarettes more than the cigarette itself, sometimes.
I guess that can be true of anything.
I enjoy the feeling of having a full tank of gas.
I enjoy not spending money sometimes more than anything else.
Especially if i can still get some things i want.
And everything i need.
Everyone should accept the same amount of everything.
People are very greedy.
They want all the good things for themselves and those around them that they feel close to.
This makes them try to force everything bad on everyone else.
Viewing them as the enemy.
We're very hypocritical
It's hard for many people to admit it of themselves, but easy to of others.
I need to stop.
It was nice while it lasted.
Today was decent.
Went to gran's again.
Started sex, sin, and zen.
So far, so good.
Visited with holly and ashley for a bit.
Went to aurora farms with my mom.
That's all, i think.
Today wasn't too bad.
Went to gran's while Steven was at work.
Finished stardust.
I loved it.
Went shopping with my mom.
That's about it.
Today was okay.
Steven started working at shell today.
Spent most of the day with my mom.
Part of that was with the girls.
We went shopping.
Not a lot else.
Today was okay, i guess.
Nap.
Chapter.
Saw my mom.
Cleaned out my car.
Steven had an interview.
It rained.
After being pretty hot.
Bout it.
Had to take ashley to akron.
It rained.
Went to (hopefully last) dr appointment.
Fell asleep for a while.
Started stardust.
Not sure yet, but there were good moments at least.
Went shopping with my mom.
Today was okay.
Watched skins.
And some other stuff.
Going to stay at the blacks'.
That's about it.
Today was pretty nice.
Went swimming.
Made brownies.
Went to gran's.
At the guys'.
That's about it.
Today was okay.
Went with my mom in the morning.
Watched skins.
Saw the girls.
Three pics, i know.
Blue moon.
Mostly boring day.
Took Steven to mulllet's.
Then went to my mom's.
Not sure what else to say.
Today was okay.
Don't feel like writing.
Finished the book.
Saw my mom.
Played chess.
Almost fell asleep.
Sort of did, i guess.
I think that's it...
Today was pretty nice.
Went to walmart with my mom.
Went on a walk with mario and austin.
Read some.
Not a whole lot else.
Today was okay.
Went to my mom's for a while.
Saw the bunny.
And the girls.
Went to laurel's with Mario and Austin.
Saw the baby kitties.
That's about it.
Today wasn't too bad.
Watched an episode of skins.
Saw my mom.
Chocolate party.
Raspberry daiquiri things good.
About it.
Today was pretty boring.
Fell asleep for a couple hours.
Earlier than i would ordinarily.
Read some more of that book.
Saw my mom for a bit.
I think that's about all.
Today was okay.
Saw my mom this morning.
Read a little before everyone got up.
Fell asleep for a while.
Not sure what else.
My car.
Fucking hates me.
Muffler=death.
Not very much to say.
Fell asleep for a couple hours after dinner.
Read some.
That might be it.
Today was okay.
Not a whole lot to say.
Read some.
Looked at a trailer in ravenna.
Ended up taking a cat nap.
(Speaking of catnapping, there were cats last night, lucky and nibblets)
Went to gran's.
Went to the store with my mom.
I think that's about it.
